October 26, 2011
When you feel like it’s not enough?
What do you do?
When you feel like,
You’re trying so hard to get their attention,
But they’re just…… ignoring you.
When there’s more than one?
You’re having trouble choosing,Because honestly… you don’t want to.
You will never know.
What it’s like to be me.
Why I do what I do.
Why everyone means so much to me.
Why I save the smallest things.
Why, when im nervous or frustrated, I tear up paper.
Why the smallest stupidest things you do affect me.
Why everyone looks at me like I’m crazy.
Why I freak out when people leave me.
Why I’m afraid of commitment.
Why I’m so emotional.
Why it’s a wonder i’m still alive.
Why I’m not doing what most kids that have been through what i have are doing.
Why my mind works differently.
You will never understand what it’s like to be me,
people have been through what I have.
But none have been through it all in such a short period of time.
You left marks
in my life
that leave a trail
back to the very same spot
in my heart
that first made me
is not an option
Do want to ignore it?
All of the pain?
The lost hopes, dreams, and sanity?
Do you wish you could go back to before this all happened?
To when you were happy,
and nothing bothered you?
To before you fell in love?